So Long Diet. Hello Baby.

Today I'm feeling a little bummed. I haven't been to the gym in quite some time, haven't been good about posting, and have realized that all our goals have been torn to shreds.

The goal to lose weight is on hold for about 7 more months. I'm expecting another baby, which I'm looking forward too more than I thought I would be, but still that means gaining weight not losing it. Maybe this is why I wasn't losing it very quickly or at all. I do want to get to the gym and walk or bicycle at least to keep somewhat in shape. Maybe this will help me have a healthier pregnancy.

I haven't been eating well. We've done a lot of eating out which is also not good for the body. But how I love someone else fixing the meals and cleaning them up. :) I have been buying more fruit though if that is any consolation.

I haven't been managing money the greatest recently either. All the eating out with a family my size consumes alot of the green stuff that doesn't seem to grow on trees or magically appear on cards. :) I do have a new goal though of getting Quick Books or something and start over. Make a budget and really try to stick to it. I'm not good at this as those who know me well can attest but I do want to keep trying. Eventually I have to succeed, right?

We also aren't going on a family vacation this year. Although Larry's health has improved greatly he still has limits to what he can or rather should do. We don't want to push too hard and backslide. Plus with me being prego I don't feel like chasing 6 kids with another on the way around places. So we'll stay close to home again this summer and swim at Papa's pool. Maybe we'll try to do a night someplace fun but otherwise nothing this year. I feel bad for the kids but also realize that the older 3 have had fun things in their lives. The younger 3/4 don't know much now and hopefully by the time they are older we can do some fun things too for them to experience.

So although I'm a little bummed about things right now I do have hope for the future. I can reset goals and achieve some of them.

Off Track

Some how I've gotten off track. I was doing so well with getting up and exercising each day...now not so much. Life is catching back up with me. I find that if I'm exercising my housework isn't getting done. If I stay home to clean then I don't have time or energy to exercise. I have got to get into some kind of routine. I think my house may just have to suffer so that I can exercise and keep my sanity, I can then have energy to play with the kids, and then work the evening/night away. Housework can get done on weekends or something. This will be my new goal. I enjoy exercising and going to the gym. I love my gym membership and my IPOD - they truly keep me sane. I find I'm more calm if I take this time for myself. So here's to a new goal of balancing exercise, family, housework and work into my days.

We have changed our goal for Summer Vacation. We are planning as a family to go to Washington DC. We are super excited for this and are very grateful to Heather's Dad for letting us visit him. This will be so much fun for the family. 2 days driving, a week in DC with a possible day or two in NY, and then 2 more days home. Busy but fun. I have almost 2 weeks off, just a couple of days shy of 2 weeks, so we have time to drive and relax and have fun. Let's hope we can save what's left of our Tax Return for the trip. Must Save, Must Save, Must Save...

My next goal is to also keep the kids busy in extra sports or something. I think they are starting to go stir crazy being home and together all the time. Kait has soccer and violin. Kaijsa has piano and will hopefully have classes and job soon. Kam has T-ball. I want to get Kinsee into Gymnastics, possibly after 3rd b-day. Another thing to save up for but a must I think. I love having family time and togetherness but sometimes being apart is good too.

Well...here are my new goals and wishes. I sure hope I can make them happen.

Weight loss is at a plateau of 165/166. I'll round down to 165 because that makes me feel better. :) I will keep working on it and my diet. It is such a life altering and life long change and goal. So hard for me because I'm an emotional eater. Oh well. Here's to future days and achievements.

On a Roll!

I decided a while back to renew my committment to losing weight. I did this by joining a gym, after the trial period to make sure I'd like it, and trying to eat healthier...again. This time it's WORKING!!!! I've gone from 183, a couple of months ago (maybe less?) to "drum roll please"....166! I'm so super excited! I can't say as I really see a difference but it's nice that the scale is. I am LOVING the gym. I went to a spinning class and it kicked my butt but I loved it. I can't wait to do it again. I'm enjoying my yoga/pilates (whether the class, Wii or DVD's) and I have even started to like running. The eliptical is still a favorite as well. I want to try the kickboxing class but haven't gone yet. I'm just glad to finally see the weight coming off. I got myself a new dress for Easter to reward myself. Also with my bonus money from work in addition to the gym membership I got myself an IPOD so I have something to listen to while working out. The kids enjoy the Kids Club and that is nice as well. Makes me not feel so guilty for going. Anyways...I just wanted to share my progress with y'all. I still have a ways to go but I know I can't do it all at once. Plus I'm sure I'll have set backs but I WILL keep trying and doing what I can. Here's to losing more and reaching my goal!

On a side note we may be changing our summer vacation plans but are still going to be able to save up and do something fun for/as a family. Just waiting on those pesky tax returns. Oh well, at least we're getting something, that's better than nothing. I'm starting to realize how blessed I am and how grateful I should be. It only took me 34/35 yrs.

New Breath

Ok, so after venting and being upset for a while about my lack of weight loss I've made some new steps toward achieving what I want. I got a bonus this year from the company I work for! So with this extra money I decided to get a gym membership to 24 Hour Fitness. I'm not usually one for gyms but felt like I needed some extra help. I got a 2 year membership from Costco, because this was the better deal, and went today. I had a free trial memebership for a week and enjoyed going. They have a Day Care room so the kids can go and play while I work out. They love it and I love it too! After a week or so of not weighing myself but still getting some exercising in I re-weighed myself today........and YAY!!! I lost 6.*** according to the Wii. I am now 172.something. I'm just going to round down because that makes me feel better. :) So 172 it is. This may not seem like a lot but when I've been bouncing between 177 and 183 usually around 179 this is a good surprise for me. I'm excited. I will still do my Wii Fit Plus and the other exercises that I bought. I love doing the exercise ball and I really enjoy Yoga/Pilates. Now I have the Gym to go too as well. I haven't been to any of the classes yet but I want to. I want to try the spinning and kickboxing especially. I have enjoyed the Eliptical and Treadmill. It's nice to work up a good sweat. So here is to starting anew and breathing new life into my goal of losing weight.

Give Up or Keep Going?

This is a short post because I'm getting tired of my goals and not being able to reach them. I'm going to have to rethink things I think. I once again weighed in today and I'm back up to 179. I hate HATE THIS!!!!! Granted Valentine's Day was rough on the diet, all the food and candy. I have been exercising but obviously that's not doing anything. Today I started to exercise and then the Wii shut off and lost all that I had been doing. Needless to say I gave up today. I'm just too dang frustrated. Plus the 2 little ones are driving me INSANE! They just make working out at times more frustrating and it makes me more angry instead of calming and relaxing me. So today is a bum day. I'm mad, frustrated and ready to give up.

Good day

So I weighed myself today and it was down a bit. I am now at 177.something. The Wii doesn't give me the ounces so I guess on those. But I am in between 177 and 178. I finally went below 179! YAY! I'm going to round down because I feel like I work my butt off to get where I'm at. Larry got me for Valentines Day the Wii Fit Plus. Some of you may be thinking "What?" "Why?" but I asked for it. I also got me a pair of exercise pants in one size smaller than I bought at Christmas time. So I feel like I'm making progress, even if I'm not. We opened the Wii game early because the kids didn't want me to wait till V-day and since I'm not a huge lover of Valentine's Day I said Ok. We are loving it. There are some really fun games and a few new exercises on it. Even Kamden and Kinsee are able to play a few of the games and they are loving it. I think it's really good for them to learn to play. It teaches them to take turns, to balance, their right and left, hand -eye-feet coordination, etc. We've been having a good time. I'll save the pants for the actual day of V-day. I'm just excited that I lost a couple of pounds, finally! Larry also has a new program on his I-touch that helps me keep track of my caloric intake and burn of calories. I love it. Knowing what I'm eating and taking in plus burning is really helping me to stay on track. I have a few weak moments but overall I'm glad of the new steps I'm taking and that my family is helping me. I'm glad they love me for who I am and how I am but it's nice to feel better about myself too. Thank you Larry and kids for loving me and helping me on my path toward fitness and good health!

Part of the good health for my family is the Dr. We've had several appts which I mentioned on my other blog. This year WILL be the year we get healthy no matter what. We'll find a way to afford to fix us all up or die trying. :) Ok so let's not hope it really kills us.

Hope all y'all are doing well on your goals. Keep it up! We Can Do It!

So Angry

I'm angry today because once again I'm not losing any freakin weight! I'm so frustrated with this whole process. What is the use of dieting and exercising when it's doing NO GOOD! I bounce between 179 and 183 all the time. No matter how much I cut out or how much I'm exercising I'm not losing any weight. If I do I just gain it back. I gained 3 lbs just by going to bed last night! What is the point?! I've been exercising since October or at least November. I should lose around a pound a week. I understood gaining at first because I'm rebuilding muscle but by now I should be losing! Nope, nada, nothing. I need to start seeing some results or I'm going to go postal!