Grumpy

I'm so upset! I started exercising in October I think. I had this dream of exercising and losing some weight. I started going to my Ward's Yoga/Pilates class twice a week and running. Instead of losing though I gained 10 lbs. I thought "ok, I've just started and I'm regaining my muscle mass". We all know muscle weighs more than fat so fine. I keep exercising. Finally, after months I lose 2 lbs maybe 3. The holidays hit and I'm frustrated. I bought an exercise kit with a ball and different videos. I'm still doing Yoga/Pilates and I randomly run. If I don't run I'm jumping rope, trying to do something. Well I decide to weigh myself today. I think of today as my weigh in. And what do I find out?! I have GAINED 6 lbs! 6 LBS!!!! I'm so angry. Why do all this exercise only to keep gaining weight? I want to lose 60-70 lbs not gain them. I admit I haven't eaten very well lately. Lots of eating out and a soda a day but still. I don't eat horribly. So I've decided to recommit myself and cut out all soda. I may have 1 glass of Kool-aid a day but try not to. I'm also going to try and not eat out so much. First because the food is bad for me. Second because it's expensive. Anyways...I thought I'd vent and fill you in on my goal to weight loss. No loss just gain. I will keep exercising though because it seems to help my level of patience. Here's to trying again.